I haven’t been in such a bad mood in a really long time. I really just wanna cry right now. I pretty much lost all of my pictures of everything I’ve ever known. The only sources of my past. Now it’s like a big chunk of my life has been erased. I’m so stupid for not having all of my pictures saved elsewhere. I should’ve known. I’m mad at myself, because I remember one night I was going to upload my most recent ones to dropshots but I was too lazy to. If only I did.. I’m so frustrated and disappointed at myself for feeling this way. And for you being the reason why. Maybe I should take my own advice. But for some reason, I just can’t, maybe I don’t want to. But nothing will ever happen..as much as I want it too. You can’t feel feelings that aren’t there, right? When you looked at me today..I wish you could’ve felt how sad I was. But you never said what I so badly want to hear. Instead you were just unresponsive to eveything that I was trying to convey. Refusing to believe that someone like me would be crushing so hard on you. I feel guilty. Because I’m a hypocrite. I hate how he never gave me a chance. But here I am, not giving you a chance either. It’s never going to happen, just so you know. But I can’t help but feel really bad about it. You tell me that I should ditch her because she doesn’t treat me right as a friend. That I shouldn’t be feeling like a third-wheel with anybody. But that’s exactly what you do to me too. I’m sad that this is the end of our friendship. But I simply cannot stand to be your friend anymore. I really need a good friend right now, someone I can talk to. Because these nights are so long and lonely. I have nobody to share the good and bad parts of my day with. My feelings and frustrations. All I have is my tumblr and the conversations inside my head.
There’s something wrong with my computer! And I don’t have ANY of my files backed up. My pictures! All of my memories. And my music too! D:
How do I handle rejection? I don't, I just deny it..
- i was going to ask; "how can you handle yourself after knowing nothing much is going to happen between a person and another"
- is it just better to move on
- or keep chasing a fleeting dream
